The Confession Series – Part Two
Some see average as something that might at as well be just enough. The questions is not whether average is enough, but rather is it all we can achieve? In a sense, when you look back upon your life you can find the highs and the lows of ones life. The average experience equals maybe a success in comparison. I don’t want to have an average life experience nor do i want a bad life experience, but sometimes it feels like that is where I’m heading. Into the abyss.
I’ve tried to detach myself from me and look upon me with another set of eyes. Look upon what I’ve achieved and the failures I’ve experienced in my life so far. I would say that I’ve experienced more heartbreak and sorrow then happiness and success in the short time I’ve been around. Along with the great moments of my life and along the sad moments I’ve always found a way to deal with it. In my own way.
Surely I’ve been humble to my shortcomings and failures as well as basked in the glory of my success, but I have never found the right balance between the both, having success and happiness or sadness and failures. Always either one or the other. It has never been a string of one or the other, always separated and for short periods of time. Sort of glimpses of either one and not endless supplies of it.
It might just be that my life, so far, has been an average experience and that it would not amount to much more then average or maybe above average. It would be sad to say that it would be anything else then just that, an marginalized above average experience. I know as much that I’m good at certain things and terrible at others. I have an tendency to think a lot about things, make plans and change plans.
I have a tendency to find new things and learn new things very quickly and at the same time forget about all other things that might also be useful. I’m someone who knows a lot about almost everything and in that knowledge i become average. Making myself become the very thing i never wanted to be; Average!
To gather knowledge in a certain area or even revel in a certain area is to me something that quickly becomes boring. Dull if you may. I rather go to great depths in a various amount of areas then just stick to one area of interest. Take music and film. I have extended knowledge of them both, but I’ve never really cared much about mathematics or science and i wonder how that came to be. I’m fairly good at almost everything.
Yet, i stumble back to the fact of that I’m actually just average or maybe above average. In the workplace it is key to have, what recruiters call “special skills or experiences”, I think i have such skills in areas that might not be what a company might be looking for, but i have them anyway, like most people. Do we become average employees, just because we have knowledge of things that might not be directly related to what we do for a living?
