Today was a day that i was supposed to have ridden the Glan Runt Bicycle Race in Norrkoping, Sweden. I wasn’t to be. It was just not meant to be that way at all. I overslept and with just 15minutes until the deadline for picking up the number tag, i knew i was running very late. I got up out of bed and onto my bike like Flash Gordon with my helmet and two water bottles.
I raced to the starting grounds 25min late and with just 5 min before the start of the race. I rushed inside to collect my starting number, but the start was just a minute or so away and i was to late to take part in the race. The riders started and i was so angry at myself that i went home and wen straight back to bed.
I had trained all of August for this race as well as Lilla Roxenrundan last weekend and now i just feel awful and i’m still mad at myself that i overslept and didn’t wake up in time. It’s just so bad that i can’t find any good words to describe it. I’m angry and disappointed at myself.
After spending most of the day in bed, beating myself up, on the inside. I went out and checked on my back tire and the rim. It has been wobbling a bit, since the last race in Linkoping and i have come to realise that it might have been good that i didn’t race today, since two of the spokes were broken and that could have lead to a serious accident at high speeds.
However, i still wanted to be able to have completed the race today, but it was my own fault it didn’t happen. Sometimes i think that certain things happen for a reason and today maybe it was someones way of telling me that i was going to get hurt if i had made the race. I guess i just have to leave the bike at the bike-shop for repairs.
One thing though, i’m not giving up and i will continue to train, if not outside on my bike, but indoors at the gym. Shredding off even more weight and gaining more endurance. However, i haven’t been this disappointed in myself for a long time.
See also :
It all began today - part 7
It all began today - part 6
It all began today - part 5
It all began today - part 4
It all began today - part 3
It all began today - part 2
It all began today - part 1
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